After M

Nice strong start with Initial M, quite busy at times, sometimes to the point where structure is almost lost. An effervescent feeling comes with it, overjoyed perhaps, nay maybe even ecstatic. A celebration perhaps. After M is instantly, reactively more sombre, a necessarily ritualistic perspective. Memories of lost time (which would probably be better expressed in French!).

Thinking about M is less plaintive, a selective memory can be a useful sidestep sometimes, but thinking about anything is philosophising and only a temporary phase. Structures start to take form, implying movement. Shades of emotion, up and/or down. The layers reflecting perhaps levels of control. Painful M is stark, raving noise from the outset, sometimes going off the dial into that distorted world where chaos is assimilated into 'normality'. But it can be a trap that turns your water brackish. Anger sours the soul/spirit.

Which according to the likes of Paracelsus leads to Poison M. Such a state maybe be brought into effect purposefully and/or circumstantially. As a track it has a sense of sluggishness, which such a poison, self-inflicted or not, might inflict upon the self. There is now, for me, a consideration of mind over matter. Is it possible to wish ill upon thyself and for it to have an effect, however profound. Which is where the Hating M comes in. Vent thy spleen, try and expulse the pain and poison from your soul/spirit. Get things off your chest with a gentle listener, but ultimately such a path as hatred is a negative course to take.

After all, it's Impossible to hate M, and the track expresses a rationalisation, at worst resignation, either way a firm acceptance of the facts as they stand, a firm, resolute track developing. Then, the end of the beginning, Living without M. It sounds emotional and sad, mournful in places, plaintive in movement. Sounds expressing emptiness, filling a hollow spirit. Rebirth.

Overall, a well produced expression of emotion through a whole cycle. I found it quite touching and could easily associate with the feel of the entire set of tracks, each in their own right, and as a whole. Thanks for sharing.