I'm Breathless

This song was supposed to be included on my album 'The Human Element', published under my stage name, Mawr Gorshin.  Unfortunately, I accidentally neglected to include it, so I've had to publish it separately.  I wrote this song about twenty years ago, so it's one of my juvenilia.  I remember working at McDonald's then, cleaning tables, removing garbage, etc., at the time when I was inspired, and I composed and arranged the music all in my head as I was working. The lyrics, however, are more recent: the song is about a man wanting to tell a girl he's in love with her, but too afraid to risk rejection in doing so.  

If I kissed you on the lips,

Would your face turn red,

Harsh words then said,

Our friendship dead

(Putting a crack in my heart)?

If my hands caressed your hips,

Would you pull away,

Then coldly say,

"We shouldn't play."

(All of my hopes torn apart)?

Oh, don't think I just feel lechery.

I feel more for you than what I see.

That point of no return with subtlety

Must be crossed at such great cost.

Before the line, unsexed yet innocent;

Beyond it, I'm released yet ignorant

Of what look you will have in your eyes:

Shock and dismay at my Oh, so bold surprise.

CHORUS:

But, what if you smiled instead,

Saying, "Love me," your arms outspread?

Wishful thinking is all this could be.  So, you see,

I am breathless whenever I have you around me.  

If we for too long embraced,

Would that be unfit?

Would you permit

Us so close-knit

(Have such a hope, I don't dare)?

If I could your body taste,

Would that be too crude?

Would it be viewed

As being too lewd

(All I can do is just stare)?

Oh, don't think I just feel lechery.

I feel more for you than what I see.

My eyes rain tears, for cruel reality

Is unswerving, me unnerving.

Oh, how could you want me as I do you?

We can't be more than friends--we can't be two,

For I'm Orlando, not Romeo.

One word can kill me: it's you saying, "No".

REPEAT CHORUS

Alone, a tone, I am out of accord

With all the universal harmony.

My well of loneliness--with my tears poured

Inside it--is my only company...